My duty ammo is Federal's LE only barrier anmo in .45 which is not available for officer purchase and I'm not even sure is loaded in 10mm.  Looking for opinions on defensive loads with good clothing penetration but not necessarily barrier penetration as it will be the "bedside" gun.  FULL LOADS, not "I'm just a larger .40."   Probably 180 or 200 grains with at least 500 foot pounds, preferably 600.  Gun is a 5" 1911 Kimber